I HAVE BETTER THINGS TO DO THAN SURVIVE...

Stare The Sun Down

2005-11-30T06:45:00.000-10:00

damn its been a long day.......school then the world... ave a bunch of dvd's to watch!!! yippeee!!!! check out this blog http://gizmodo.com/ this blog kicks ass..... i've seen better days.... but if you can ride the waves long enough..... you'll find a way to make it.... damn the lives we choose to live..

Sunshower

2005-11-14T06:54:00.000-10:00

Dark as roses fine as sand
Feel your healing and your sting again
I hear you laughing and my soul is saved
On forgotten graves you cry

Crawl like ivy up my spine
Through my nerves and into my eyes
Cuts like anguish
Or recollections of better days gone by

But its all right
When youre caught in pain
And you feel the rain come down
Its all right
When you find your way
Then you see it disappear
Its all right
Though your gardens grey
I know all your graces
Someday will flower
In the sweet sunshower

Eyes like oceans so far away
A feather trail to a better way
Worried mornings turn into days
Then into worried nights

But its all right
When youre all in pain
And you feel the rain come down
Oh its all right
When you find your way
Then you see it disappear
Oh its all right
Though your gardens grey
I know all your graces
Someday will flower
Oh in the sweet sunshower
Oh in the sweet sunshower
In the sweet sunshower

I know all your graces
Someday will flower
In the sweet sunshower
And its all right
All youll be you are today
Are today
Its all right
All youll be you are today
Are today.........

Grunge

2005-11-02T09:41:00.000-10:00

Still Kicks ass until now... one of the best in the business... oh how i wish i could just stare at something like that..

Joyeux anniversaire mon cher Madamme M.

2005-11-02T09:25:00.000-10:00

Joyeux anniversaire... que je souhaite je pourrais vous dire que dans l'espoir de personne... votre vie vers le haut de vos reves... vous remercient de me faire realisent beaucoup d'acclamations de choses. !

Haunting

2005-10-28T08:08:00.000-10:00

everywhere i go i see your face
every sound i hear is the sound of your voice
why are you haunting me
why can't i let you go?
so everything about me is a lie
or at least it seems that way
when i look into your eyes
the truth scares the shit out of me
whoever said love is blood and love is real
has never felt the way i feel
what does it matter
what's done is done and i should
get on with my life
why are you haunting me?
well i don't know what it is
but i can't seem to make myself forget
was it something that you said
or is it all the guilt inside my headwhy are you haunting me?

Parfois Il Blesse Tellement Pour perdre Celui Que Vous Aimez

2005-10-28T08:00:00.000-10:00

Six o'clock in the morning my head is ready to explode I can't believe i made it home alive I don't remember where i went or what i was drinking but i know it's made me sick and am not denying that i get this way when i try to get over you i get this way when i try to get over you sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love i tried so hard to hate you but it only makes things worse i only end up hating myself and as my hatred grows so do the lies it's hard to face the truth sometimes god i feel so useless god i hate myself when i try to get over you i hate myself how will i ever get over you? and after all this time you would think i'd understand the way i feel but no i only think about myself and it's driving you away sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love

7 weeks

2005-10-28T07:50:00.000-10:00

You rip my guts with every sharp word,When you use that monster Hiding underneath your tongue My words dont work on you No they dont work like they used to. Because its been seven weeks oh seven weeks since I called you When I try now I just cant get through. So far the drinks have been so strong No writing on the post cards No memories to hang on. Sleeping in my six o clock shadow People judging people so shallow I call you up to see what youre doing To see if you wont... Send me your love right through the ceiling I need your love this evening! Oh moma, moma moma what can I do? Theres a jukebox baby And you can play our favorite song all night Until your moneys gone,Cause if Am right about you darlin Then youre probably laying in bed And your temperature is boiling Cause your making things up in your head. So far the days have been so long But now I got my fade on Screaming at you at the top of my lungs! Fog is lifting from the old man I had so much fun in the trash can I wave my flag but you still send your troops in To the war in your soul. Backstage pass through these time zones Want you everyday but Am not home Cant really touch you through the cell phone Theres so many things that you just dont know..

Storm Trooper

2005-10-28T07:30:00.000-10:00

You think that we can't see your face. I think you need to give us our space. you know that we can raze this place and leave you without a trace. Storm trooper storm trooper why are you here the youth them getting restless and they don't want you near. Your watching us your watching us it so improper we've seen your kind before we call it informer.Storm trooper storm trooper where will you go? This world she no like you so you better stay low. And up from the mountains and out from the trees, that is where you come from you crawl like the one disease. So now you pass me the laser beam and you want me to join the team. Well Im not used to these kinds of things, but this is what the evil brings. Let me tell you bout the fire. You could bring the waters up above. I'll bring my favorite people and I'm bringing all my love. You want a battle well don't look very far, you want to fight somebody come fight the superstar. I knew you wouldn't stand a chance you left without a passing glance, there's nothing you could ever do to keep me from stopping you. It's so dark and lonely out here in outer space, but at least I got my keyboard and my low bot has his bass.Playing street sweeper tunes and watching tye fighters fly by. Things would be better if I was back at home with pepper burning pakalolo not even noticing the weather so far and so alone a million light years away. Storm trooper storm trooper back up from my door I got my blaster set I'm ready to start a minor war. This won't be the day you were hoping for so just walk away walk away. Better run now cause your done now cause your standing in a bad mans town, boy. Time to get back to my daily routine have a beer at a bar on tattooine. You take away everything , make my people scream out loud. Just bring it back Lord just bring it back. You mess it up and you rearrange open your eyes and turn the page. Just bring it back. I believe I'll interject to talk about the word respect. Its not a word that's in your hands its more about the common man You took your time and paved the way making room for other man to play a grip of bodies a mess of minds endless conversations to rock.

Murphy's Laws on SEX

2005-10-22T20:34:00.000-10:00

1.The more beautiful the woman is who loves you, the easier it is to leave her with no hard feelings.

2.Nothing improves with age.

3.No matter how many times you've had it, if it's offered take it, because it'll never be quite the same again.

4.Sex has no calories.

5.Sex takes up the least amount of time and causes the most amount of trouble.

6.There is no remedy for sex but more sex.

7.Sex appeal is 50% what you've got and 50% what people think you've got.

8.Sex is like snow; you never know how many inches you are going to get or how long it is going to last.

9.If you get them by the balls, their hearts and minds will follow.

10.Virginity can be cured.

11.When a man's wife learns to understand him, she usually stops listening to him.

12.The qualities that most attract a woman to a man are usually the same ones she can't stand years later.

13.Sex is dirty only if it's done right.

14.It is always the wrong time of month.

15.The best way to hold a man is in your arms.

16.When the lights are out, all women are beautiful.

17.Sex is hereditary. If your parents never had it, chances are you won't either.

18.Sow your wild oats on Saturday night - Then on Sunday pray for crop failure.

19.The game of love is never called off on account of darkness.

20.It was not the apple on the tree but the pair on the ground that caused the trouble in the garden.

21.Sex discriminates against the shy and the ugly.

22.Before you find your handsome prince, you've got to kiss a lot of frogs.

23.There may be some things better than sex, and some things worse than sex. But there is nothing exactly like it.

24.Love your neighbor, but don't get caught.

25.Love is a hole in the heart.

26.If the effort that went in research on the female bosom had gone into our space program, we would now be running hot-dog stands on the moon.

27.Love is a matter of chemistry, sex is a matter of physics.

28.Do it only with the best.

29.Sex is a three-letter word which needs some old-fashioned four-letter words to convey its full meaning.

30.One good turn gets most of the blankets.

31.You cannot produce a baby in one month by impregnating nine women.

32.Love is the triumph of imagination over intelligence.

33.It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

34.Thou shalt not commit adultery.....unless in the mood.

35.Never lie down with a woman who's got more troubles than you.

36.Abstain from wine, women, and song; mostly song.

37.Never argue with a women when she's tired -- or rested.

38.A woman never forgets the men she could have had; a man, the women he couldn't.

39.What matters is not the length of the wand, but the magic in the stick.

40.It is better to be looked over than overlooked.

41.Never say no.

42.A man can be happy with any woman as long as he doesn't love her.

43.Folks playing leapfrog must complete all jumps.

44.Beauty is skin deep; ugly goes right to the bone.

45.Never stand between a fire hydrant and a dog.

46.A man is only a man, but a good bicycle is a ride.

47.Love comes in spurts.

48.The world does not revolve on an axis.

49.Sex is one of the nine reasons for reincarnation; the other eight are unimportant.

50.Smile, it makes people wonder what you are thinking.

51.Don't do it if you can't keep it up.

52.There is no difference between a wise man and a fool when they fall in love.

53.Never go to bed mad, stay up and fight.

54.Love is the delusion that one woman differs from another.

55."This won't hurt, I promise."

Return to The Innocence Lost

2005-10-18T08:37:00.000-10:00

This is by one of my favorite poets

Will somebody wear me to the fair? Will a lady pin me in her hair? Will a child find me by a stream? Kiss my petals and weave me through a dream.
For all of these simple things and much more a flower was bornIt blooms to spread love and joy faith and hope to people forlorn
Inside every man lives the seed of a flowerIf he looks within he finds beauty and power
Ring all the bells sing and tell the people that be everywhere that the flower has comeLight up the sky with your prayers of gladness and rejoice for the darkness is goneThrow off your fears let your heart beat freely at the sign that a new time is born

Burn Baby Burn

2005-10-17T14:48:00.000-10:00

I look upon you with eyes burnt from tears
sear the meat of my heart with memories
of your hot or cold words your dry ice words

with vision blurred
I watch our love go up in a frigid smoke
guess I got to close
I inhaled I choked

Etched you name on my walls with the fire in your touch
Our ardor once warmed like summer soldered bodies
we swam in simmering sweat

melting metal softening
glowing fiery orange like the sun bending

At strangest times I feel the heat of the iron still
Like smoldering coals now weaker but able to burn still
This hurt turns angry scalds like freshly boiled tea water
spilled upon flesh making skin bubble then blister
later to heal scarring still

Etch my name on your wall with a caustic tongue
hope at strangest times you feel the heat
Shall we leave our love at the stake within a fence of flames

sacrificed on an altar of discontent
sacrificed for no greater purpose
on an altar of self or for the purpose of self

Will the rains come to douse or drown
Will we rebuild from the ember and ash
Or will nothing ever grow here
on this burnt earth that was us

Burn from passion or displeasure slow burn
One million ways to burn choose one

The Journey

2005-10-16T12:04:00.000-10:00

The journey begins with the slow pulsating rhythms of an innocent and timeless conception, harmonics shaping the muscles and placing a personal note deep in the hearts of those reborn...

When it all gets too much we can return to that note in our heart to find golden solitude, making journeys to the rooms and hallways of inner space where the only sound is the life Force drumming exquisite percussions in your ear... It's kinda Something Nothing, one of the many varied ways of thought...

Lets se if i can still write in french....

Apres que tout qui a I produit ait pense que je n'ecrirais encore jamais. La douleur, la deception... sa toute toujours ici. Il y a des moments immobiles dans ma vie ou je regarde en arriere sur les choses que cela ont transpire ces derniers mois. Je la trouvaille moi-meme de plus en plus isole en ce monde nous vis dedans maintenant. Appreciant la lecture et l'ecriture davantage que toute autre chose... Je vous ai a remercier de cela... que vous m'avez rappele la facon dont simple et agreable ma vie est vraiment. Les moments ou nous avions partages ensemble etaient bonheur. Pour heriter la votre vie et contact peut-etre juste le bord d'une existence si grande est un plaisir, je vous assurent. Je sais que qui vous etes et je sais ce que vous faites et ce que vous revez. Quand vous pensez personne ne vous voit, vous doit comprendre que vous etes comme les etoiles dans le ciel a minuit. Qui vous etes vraiment importe seulement a vous. Quand tout est dit et fait, vous vous avez seulement a dependre au moment - et cette lumière precieuse que j'ai vu quand j'ai regarde fixement sur vos yeux, polissent si lumineux. Aimez qui vous etes et ce qu'etes vous, de sorte que vous soyez leger et comment vous etes vu, comme les etoiles a minuit, devient tres intelligent et beau. Les phenomenes les plus beaux dans un lancement noircissent le ciel.

1,095 Week Ends....

2005-10-16T11:32:00.000-10:00

I just realized.... I have lived thru 1095 week ends....this weekend was one for the books... There are still reasons why i like to just sleep through my birthday... the most relevant one is i just want to forget.... i've been phasing in and out of sleep... technically i just woke up now... damn those sleeping pills lex gave me... if i was to seriously count... i was asleep for almost two days... but i prefer it that way... am happy my friends didnt make a big deal out of it.... my fear download is now 40% complete... maybe in a day or two....damn i see sunshine... damn the daylight... i miss reading french poems... they're so graphic and morbid... just the way i like it....

Am 21 life has just begun
Got a temper like a loaded gun
Pointing it at everyone
That's my game
And it helps me get through the day
But a voice inside me says
How much longer can I play

Peace of mind
Is not easy for me to find
And Am walkin' a thinner line
In a place where another man is keeping my time
Though Am young
Am not like everyone
I sees what I have become
And I'd rather be standing in the sun

I've got infinite possibilities
I can see them now
It's the unbroken chains of my past by which Am bound
I've got infinite possibilities
I can feel them now
If I choose well, then nothing can tear me down

Addiction & Vices

2005-10-14T11:23:00.000-10:00

I don't want to go to work today
I'd rather stay home and play
Video games
I want to chill

But got to get up
I got to get up

I don't want to go to work today
I'd rather stay home and play
Video games
I'd rather chill for real
I don't know how you feel
But sometimes I feel
Like i'm working for nothing
Trying to get something
Everywhere I turn there's a bill
Standing now,
Swim a river climb a hill
Complacency you ain't going to get me
No, no

I'd rather be in my space
Or rather chill in my place
So I can go out and play all day
I'd rather chill at home
Or rather lay alone

But got to get up
I got to get up

I don't want to
Go and play today
But what can
I say bills to pay
I just cat get comfortable doing nothing

I don't want to go do but I got to go out today
Rather stay home
I'd rather chill

Rather stay and play
But I got to do
What I got to do
Just can't get comfortable doing nothing
No No....

F.E.A.R.

2005-10-14T09:09:00.000-10:00

ahhhhh IT class.... ym class was fun.... yeah.... its actually very interesting.... Yeah... anyways....(i love DOTS!!!!!!!!!!!) Today was very interesting... was chased by cops around makati for violating the color-coding rule.... Thank you powerplant parking lot!!!! Zara's opening was a bummer... there was a very smalll selection for men.... (TO ALL SHOPPING FANS... ZARA IS OPEN) its only the first of three stores to open... the next one will be in greenbelt, sometime in January of next year... then in Shang around june.... Thats according to the owner..(who i just met).... poker at home... i forgot my chips in school so we had to make use of old ps1 cds instead.... Yay! fear is now out.... SEEK AND YE SHALL FIND. found out my friend is now working for egm phil...(bad magazine...)hehehehehe..... Plus am now trying to get fahrenheit for my pc....

Shake Rabbit and Roll

2005-10-13T05:30:00.000-10:00

This Bunny Is suppose to shake!!! Dammit I need ciggies.........

Eve

2005-10-13T05:20:00.000-10:00

My Ibanez FWD60T. My first bright orange guitar... The pickups are a combination of a Seymour Duncan Super Shredder and a PRS Screaming Dragon Pickup... The F holes make this a real classy looking guitar.... BTW this is what my summer job got me...

Laura

2005-10-13T05:15:00.000-10:00

The infamous Ibanez RG7321 7 sting guitar... This one of the hardest ones to maintain, since stores here dont offers 7 string sets... but still a beautiful work of art nonetheless...

Liz

2005-10-13T05:02:00.000-10:00

This is my Ibanez AX125. Custom DiMarzio Pickups. Guage 11 Strings... One of my heavy hitters... You want to go even lover... This particular model has a drop D mechanism which lets me even go lower than the oh so low.

Alison

2005-10-13T04:57:00.000-10:00

This is My ibanez IC300... My heaviest guitar up to date... I love my axes... To add character i changed the pickups to Gibson Super Ceramic Pickups... My guitars each have there own distict sound... I just had to make this girl HEAVY... Perfect when pissed off with the world!

Marga

2005-10-13T04:37:00.000-10:00

This girl is one of my most prized possesions... An Ibanez SC220. Ibanez stopped this series about three years ago. I would really want to get a twin... I canged all the hardware to chrome to give it a more minimal look.. This one is All Out Japan.. This is my lightest guitar... Perfect craftsmanship... As usual i changed my pickups. But this time I went with PRS Custom pickups... The most versatile out of all my guitars... This one can go from Hard Rock to Blues Rock to Funk Rock...

Bunnies!!!!

2005-10-13T04:07:00.000-10:00

Now this movie Kicks Wabbit ASS!!!!! You got to watch the ending credits!!!

Namaste

2005-10-12T09:37:00.000-10:00

Namaste elevates one's consciousness, reminding one that all beings, all existence is holy, is the Almighty. It communicates, "I honor or worship the Divinity within you." Also it draws the individual inward for a moment, inspires reflection on the deeper realities, softening the interface between people. It would be difficult or offend or feel animosity toward any one you greet as Paramatma. It means "I salute the Almighty within you." The true Namaste gesture is is accompanied by bowing the head and shoulders slightly. This is a gesture that lessens our sense of ego and self-centeredness, requiring some humility to do it well -- whereas shaking hands can be quite an arrogant event. Touching the hands together puts you in touch with your center, your soul. namaste puts you forward as a soul, not an outer personality. The gesture has a subtle effect on the aura and nerve system. bringing focused attention and a collection of one's forces, so to speak. It also protects against unnecessary psychic connections which are fostered by shaking hands. This might be called a form of purity also -- protecting one's energies. This form of acknowledgment is so lovely, so graceful. Just look at two people in Namaste and you will see so much human beauty and refinement.

British Invasion.... Japanese Faggs....

2005-10-12T06:59:00.000-10:00

Just finished two movies.... Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels and Mean Machine. I had top-ramen for dinner since i slept at 6 pm and woke up at 9pm and everybody at home finished all the cooked food. its now 2am. i have 3 ciggs left. dang!!! Listening to Jamiroquai while reading Good Omens by Neil Gaiman & Terry Prachett.... GOD SAVE THE QUEEN!!!! I Just LOVE British humor!!!!

Lock, Stock and Smoking Ciggies!

2005-10-12T06:47:00.000-10:00

Second movie... Dammit... It's still early..... NO more ciggs........................ SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEYIIIIIIITTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Piss Drunk Football Stars

2005-10-12T06:41:00.000-10:00

Another Sleepless night... The first movie that i saw tonight.... British Flicks Kick ASSSS!!!!

Tuesday Maintenance......

2005-10-11T09:47:00.000-10:00

Dammit another sleepless night....
Am an imsoniac...

World of Warcract is Offline due to Server Maintenance....

Dammit!!!!!!!!!!!